Dear Piya,
You are going to become a big sister in a matter of days!
And before the second one comes along, I wish to share what my heart has been beating with for the past few weeks, with you.
Before you were born, your father & I did not know how our lives were going to change forever. But the change has been such a glorious one that it made us want to have one more of you :)
With you, we have shared a wonderful 5 years of being the trio of Mumma-Papa-Piya.
You have certainly enjoyed all our attention and the perks that come along with being an only child.
Well, that's all going to change, darling.
As much as I wish for you to stay the cuddly teady bear that you are, with time, you have grown up. So much so that, you have already named the baby to come - Snowflake ❄️
We all love this name, by the way, and may very well use it as the second baby's nickname for life.
Now, I wrote to you, as I have been struggling with the anticipation of what new changes we all stand to witness with your sibling's birth.
I have not known love the way I have experienced with you, my munchkin. In you laughs, your naughtiness, your pouts, your movements, your sleep and much more, I have found a life that is content with smiling without reason.
I miss the years gone by when your tiny, wordless baby body used to stay in arms longer, but I am not ready to give up what they have evolved into in the form of sweet talks, either.
I find myself drawn towards hugging you more than ever before, these days.
I yearn for your company more too, which I surprisingly become tired of in some time as your growing, energetic body beats my fatigued, heavily pregnant one every time.
I keep calling you to just come and share a smile with me, as you get irritated with being drawn away from play every now & then.
But what I love the most is watching you sleep, and wondering how I will miss being only your Mumma (no offense to snowflake; we will have a whole other blog to share second baby!).
I don't know if or how much I will miss you, after the second baby is born. All I know is that this time, the change goes beyond the lives of your father & myself.
This time, it is your life that will see a change too.
I want to assure of one thing, amidst all that wi seem new & perhaps even different - I will always be there for you, my love.
I may need some rest to get back to my senses after sleepless nights, yet again. I may need some quiet to start thinking straight, after the baby is done crying for the 20th time during the day. I may even need a massage or two, before my body feels like it is better than a zombie!
But after all that, I promise you, I will be there as & when you call my name!
But, just as a thought, how about, you be there for us, in the meanwhile?
After all, you are going to be a whopping 5-year-old, in just a few days, so how about sharing this experience by sharing the load, eh?
Nuh? Too much of an ask?
Sure...no problem.
We will stick to my plan of being there for you, despite my fatigue, sleeplessness, irritability, and post-delivery-body-stress.
Sigh.
Some day, I will look back on this letter and get an earful from Snowflake for sure.
Till then, keep smiling, love. You have a lot coming to you now :)
Love,
Maa
