Dear Piya,
There are way too many things happening around you, as you have steeped hard onto that paddle of growing up.
I constantly find myself making a mental note of what I would want my next letter to be about, only to end up forgetting the first note as I conjure up the fifth letter in my memory.
But here is something that I haven't written about; that I should have written to you a long time back.
"You came from me.
You are a part of me.
You are the best reason I have ever had to smile.
And that is because you came out of me..."
This is what the expression of 'I can't believe I have such an adorable baby' in my eyes has stood for, every time I have looked at you.
This is what my words have struggled to express, every time you have coming running into my chest with a thud with a 'Mummmmmmmmmyyyy'.
This is what my chest enlarged with extra deep breaths means, every time you do something impossibly amazing, making me feel proud on cloud nine.
This is what that mute moments of long stares at you try to communicate as my eyes remain fixated on your beautiful, little, sleeping face of an angel, wondering whether to risk touching you to close your gaped open, drooling mouth.
You came from me.
I have skipped heartbeats with this sentence on my lips as much as I have grinned my teeth wide upon ownership of this sentence.
Now, the reason I am writing to you about this just now isn't purely coincidental.
While I maintain how I have felt this way ever since you were born, I had only muttered this feeling under my breath so far; that was till today.
Take it from you mother - It is one thing to experience love for your child in every cell of your body, and a completely different butterflies-in-my-stomach mixed with tears-in-my-eyes kind of thing to have your child repeat your feeling!
Today, I took the liberty of telling you where babies come from (a friend is expecting and I was sharing the welcoming idea for a new baby with you).
As I described a baby's entry into the world through a pop out of her mother's tummy, the next line of conversation naturally led to, "Do you know where you came from, Piya? You came out of Mumma's tummy!"
You looked at my face with an incredulous expression.
And then you looked in the direction of my stomach.
"No...." said your face.
"Yes! Aap Mumma ke tummy mein se aaye ho!" I repeated wanting an affirmation from you (because I just needed to have you believe then & there!)
"Mumma ke tummy mein se", you finally giggled with.
"Awwwww..." I pulled you in and hugged you tightly. I did not want to let you go for a long minute, but you needed your space because you weren't back in my tummy just like that.
"Aap kahan se aaye ho, Piya?" I asked greedily to hear you say it again.
"Mumma ke tummy mein se" you replied, with a less ecstatic expression now.
Wanting to make you say it again, I instantly & naively asked, "How did you come out of Mumma's tummy?" only to realise what a dumb line of questioning that was.
Now, you better believe me that little humans like you are born with wit ingrained in them, because here you replied with, "I slowly crawled out of Mumma's tummy and then came out with a hurray!"
I stared at you with an incredulous expression now, only to nod my head with disbelief at my child's innate genius moments later.
"Piya...Piya!"
That's all I could manage to say.
I have said it before and I will say it again -
You are amazing, my love!
You are the most amazing part of me.
You are the best reason I have ever had to smile.
And that is because you came out of me...
Love,
Maa.
There are way too many things happening around you, as you have steeped hard onto that paddle of growing up.
I constantly find myself making a mental note of what I would want my next letter to be about, only to end up forgetting the first note as I conjure up the fifth letter in my memory.
But here is something that I haven't written about; that I should have written to you a long time back.
"You came from me.
You are a part of me.
You are the best reason I have ever had to smile.
And that is because you came out of me..."
This is what the expression of 'I can't believe I have such an adorable baby' in my eyes has stood for, every time I have looked at you.
This is what my words have struggled to express, every time you have coming running into my chest with a thud with a 'Mummmmmmmmmyyyy'.
This is what my chest enlarged with extra deep breaths means, every time you do something impossibly amazing, making me feel proud on cloud nine.
This is what that mute moments of long stares at you try to communicate as my eyes remain fixated on your beautiful, little, sleeping face of an angel, wondering whether to risk touching you to close your gaped open, drooling mouth.
You came from me.
I have skipped heartbeats with this sentence on my lips as much as I have grinned my teeth wide upon ownership of this sentence.
Now, the reason I am writing to you about this just now isn't purely coincidental.
While I maintain how I have felt this way ever since you were born, I had only muttered this feeling under my breath so far; that was till today.
Take it from you mother - It is one thing to experience love for your child in every cell of your body, and a completely different butterflies-in-my-stomach mixed with tears-in-my-eyes kind of thing to have your child repeat your feeling!
Today, I took the liberty of telling you where babies come from (a friend is expecting and I was sharing the welcoming idea for a new baby with you).
As I described a baby's entry into the world through a pop out of her mother's tummy, the next line of conversation naturally led to, "Do you know where you came from, Piya? You came out of Mumma's tummy!"
You looked at my face with an incredulous expression.
And then you looked in the direction of my stomach.
"No...." said your face.
"Yes! Aap Mumma ke tummy mein se aaye ho!" I repeated wanting an affirmation from you (because I just needed to have you believe then & there!)
"Mumma ke tummy mein se", you finally giggled with.
"Awwwww..." I pulled you in and hugged you tightly. I did not want to let you go for a long minute, but you needed your space because you weren't back in my tummy just like that.
"Aap kahan se aaye ho, Piya?" I asked greedily to hear you say it again.
"Mumma ke tummy mein se" you replied, with a less ecstatic expression now.
Wanting to make you say it again, I instantly & naively asked, "How did you come out of Mumma's tummy?" only to realise what a dumb line of questioning that was.
Now, you better believe me that little humans like you are born with wit ingrained in them, because here you replied with, "I slowly crawled out of Mumma's tummy and then came out with a hurray!"
I stared at you with an incredulous expression now, only to nod my head with disbelief at my child's innate genius moments later.
"Piya...Piya!"
That's all I could manage to say.
I have said it before and I will say it again -
You are amazing, my love!
You are the most amazing part of me.
You are the best reason I have ever had to smile.
And that is because you came out of me...
Love,
Maa.
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